it struck me today that though “nothing is happening” in the realm of guys/ marriage/ etc, a lot is happening. 2 couples at church were married in the past 2 months. I know another couple getting married in a week and 1/2. And God knows my heart, that is my desire too. The thought crossed my mind this afternoon – do I rejoice with those who rejoice?
I pray that God would help my attitude to be one of rejoicing not one more like that of Naomi in Ruth 1:19-21 — So the two of them went on until they came to Bethlehem. And when they came to Bethlehem, the whole town was stirred because of them. And the women said, “Is this Naomi?” She said to them, “Do not call me Naomi; call me Mara, (meaning “Bitter”) for the Almighty has dealt very bitterly with me. I went away full, and the LORD has brought me back empty. Why call me Naomi, when the LORD has testified against me and the Almighty has brought calamity upon me?”
And more than that, do I have the faith that He will provide for me? He provides for others – do I sinfully look at myself as an exception? Do I trust that my Sovereign Creator knows my needs, delights in giving good gifts, and has the perfect timing? “Abraham believed God, and it was counted to him as righteousness . . . In hope he believed against hope, that he should become the father of many nations, as he had been told, “So shall your offspring be.” He did not weaken in faith when he considered his own body, which was as good as dead (since he was about a hundred years old), or when he considered the barrenness of Sarah’s womb. No distrust made him waver concerning the promise of God, but he grew strong in his faith as he gave glory to God, fully convinced that God was able to do what he had promised. That is why his faith was “counted to him as righteousness”.” (Romans 4:3, 18-22)
Oh, Father, I pray that you would open my eyes. Give me eyes of faith. Allow me to grow strong in faith rather than allowing my sinful distrust to charge you. Loving Father, you are kind. You are gracious and caring. You have met my greatest need on the cross and have blessed me beyond all description. Kind Father, hear my prayer. My friends and I desire marriage. We desire to see faith grow in others in our church as they see you provide abundantly. We desire for you to be glorified. We want You first. We don’t desire that marriage or husbands or children become idols to us – we merely seek those good gifts in our lives as well. We have been fasting and praying for over a year and anxiously wait for your answer. Please Lord, do not be silent. Hear our prayers. Answer our cry in your graciousness.