i’m grateful for new mercies every morning. most mornings, i wake up simply longing for another 5 minutes of sleep. and most mornings, though in my laziness, i give in to that temptation i always find myself still longing for another 5! :(
i’ve been staying up too late this week… reading a new book. The Heavenly Man: The Remarkable True Story of Chinese Christian Brother Yun. As one man stated “you may begin reading the book on your couch, but you will finish it on your knees (source). Halfway through the book, I have found that to be true.
This man, Yun suffered greatly for his Lord. He endured many crosses of persecution. in God’s kindness, the more I read stories like this, the more I am encouraged with the kindness and sovereignty of my God… a God that did not forget Yun in a horrible prison with day after day of torture beyond what my american mind is able to comprehend… and a God that has not forgotten me through my “light and temporary afflictions” that tend to dominate my thoughts, desires and days.
Yun rejoiced when paraded through the streets as a criminal. What was his crime? He preached the gospel… that his hope was found in the blood of Christ. as i’ve read of his joy, i’ve sat on my bed often thinking of the phrase “rejoice with a joy that is inexpressible.” my faith in a powerful God, a God that restores, a God that saves, a God that redeems and calls my life from the pit… my faith in that God has seen growth this past few days as a result of this testimony.
specifically what has been a challenge to me was a period in Yun’s life where he was imprisoned. He spent months with no access to a Bible, yet he recounts scripture after scripture that that the Lord used to minister to Him during that time. I’ve been reminded again of the message from Na* this year. I want to value God’s Words like that. They are my life. Yet often I look to them as mere advice or rules. Do I treat God’s Word with such delight that it is my joy, like this servant of God, to memorize entire books of the Bible and then share them with friends? Or do I look for my “nugget of the day”?
God, i pray that you would show me yet again the feast you’ve given me. Please don’t let me be satisfied with the little “bites” i’ve been chewing on lately. Give me more of a hunger, more of a desire, more of a desperate need.