its funny, at times we get so used to the “abnormal” that when things settle down to “normal” again, it seems weird. (who defines normal, anyways?)
i’ve spent the last several years struggling with insomnia and other major health issues. typically the way it looked for me is one month i would sleep no more than 2 -3 hours a night, and then the next month i would sleep on average 5-6. and about once a month i’d spend a day or two in bed too exhausted and sick to even move. it was really to the point that i could anticipate… “i’m not gonna sleep much for the next month” and then i’d mentally prepare myself for this.
well over the past 2 years, and especially the past 8 months or so, the doctors have been trying to get to the root cause of many of the health issues i’ve been having. and slowly, i’ve begun to see some pretty major improvement.
i’m not on seizure meds anymore. i’m not having to take migraine meds as often, and i’m able to control most of the migraines by very carefully watching my diet (aka no wheat, barley, rye, gluten, oats, dairy, artificial color, artificial flavor, etc). i’ve got the energy to exercise again on a consistent basis and am able to concentrate during the day. and over the past 3 months, i’ve slept on average nearly 6 hours a night! (for me, that’s pretty amazing!)
but the weird thing is this… i feel like i NEVER have enough time now. i’ve gone from having approximately 21 hours a day to do things and now i’ve only got about 17. I thank God for the extra 4 hours of sleep i’ve been getting but its crazy…
is this how “normal” people feel??? :) never enough time? too much to do? does this mean i’m “normal” now? (haha!) :)
its just a new and weird experience for me and i’m having to learn how to adjust. i’m not reading as much anymore. that makes me sad. but i’m wondering when to do it… my typical reading time is from 12 – 3 or 4 am! i miss my 2 am facebook chats with the other insomniacs. seriously, when is there time now for a bubble bath? or to organize your sock drawer?
all these important questions in my mind as i’m readjusting to a new “normal.” praise God for His gift of sleep! now I just need to learn the gift of managing time. :)