this morning I was praying and thinking of Psalm 57 “My heart is steadfast O God, my heart is steadfast. I will sing and make music.”
I wrote the poem below as I was thinking through that passage and the fact that my heart is steadfast because of the nature of my God, not my circumstances. I had a moment last night where I thought “what did i just do!!??… i just quit my job and walked away from it all.” and immediately my mind went to this verse. My heart has felt such peace since Ted and I made the decision to quit my job.
We know that this is what God is calling us to do. My last day will officially be September 10th. So, right after lunch, I got a phone call. It appears my grandfather had a heart attack last night. I don’t know the details but it seems it wasn’t a major one (whatever that means) though he was crying and begging God to just take him home at one point because he was in so much pain. So, I call my husband to give him the news and where is he but stuck on the side of the road with a flat tire on his lunch break. Great, just great. Instantly I feel the freak-out-ometer rising…
And then my mind goes back to this morning… steadfast because of God, not circumstances. Steadfast because the God who changed my life controls my days as well. steadfast because I have example after example of how trustworthy He has been. So, I trust. God loves my Pop-pop. He knows what will happen. I will choose to be steadfast there…
Steadfast is my heart o God
As I fix my eyes on you
Through every test and trial, Lord,
To me, you have been true.
You’ve guided through confusion
You’ve led me every step
With patience, care and tenderness
You brought me from the depths.
So I sing with joy, for you’ve redeemed
This sinner from the grave.
You’ve change my nature, changed my name
No longer to death a slave
With joy I serve you Lord, my King,
My Master and my Guide
I trust you hand to keep me safe
From the trials on every side.
Guard my heart, keep my thoughts fast
As I fix my gaze on you
With confidence and trust may I
Trust what you plan to do.
My heart is steadfast, Lord, it is
Steadfast with trust for my King.
The One who redeemed, the One who gave life
The One who caused my heart to sing.