I have been greatly comforted lately by the promise and hope that my God will never leave, never forsake, never dissapoint and never abandon me.
Several months ago, I began dating a wonderful man of God and have been greatly blessed and encouraged by his deep love for God and his tender care for me. But there have been times already where we’ve disagreed. There have been moments where i’ve done something sinfully to make him angry and I’m sure he could have found it easier to simply walk away. and vice versa.
we were talking last night and I was crying and my heart was struggling with being full of fear… i am so grateful for the gift he is to me and am scared of the thought of losing him. i’m very aware that God knows the end result and though we plan our steps that His plan may not be for the two of us to be together… or that if we end up together that one of us could die and that life may not end up looking like what we hope and plan at this point. I hope and pray that is not the case. well, last night, I was really struggling with trusting God and was fearing that God would maliciously or vindictively take Ted away from me to simply teach me a lesson or punish me somehow.
Ted graciously reminded me that our God is not vindictive or harsh. He does not hold our sins over us and his desire is for good for His children. And as His child, that means His desire is for good for me.
But sometimes that’s hard to believe because life doesn’t feel that way. Yesterday was one of those days… I spent most of the day with a heavy cloud over my head and with a fear of God’s judgment or vengence. I was yet again, more aware of my sin than of God’s grace as displayed through the cross of Christ.
I’m grateful for the reminders God gives us in our weakness. Yesterday, He reminded me that He is good, His mercy is everlasting and His goodness and truth endure through all generations.
I don’t need to fear the unknown future. I don’t need to worry about “what-ifs”. My God has promised never to leave. Even if all around gives way, He is the confident Rock on which I stand. And I know that even if He were to take me down another undesired path, just like He upheld me through every path I’ve faced thus far, He will do so again.
So, I was able to sleep last night, resting in that promise. Resting in knowing that my God will always be by my side as my friend, underneath as my support, ahead as my guide and behind as my protection. And how grateful I am that those are truths that will never ever change.