my soul this week has not been characterized by peace, let alone perfect peace. many times, for many reasons, i have struggled with worry… worry over health, worry over seeing friends walking through very hard situations, worry over the future… i could write a long list of the things i’ve worried about over the past few days. but i know I should focus on where I know God wants me to focus… on His care for me, His power over my life and His goodness…
He has blessed me lavishly. I don’t deserve His kidness. I am overwhelmed at His patience with me. I so often am tempted to see my sin as greater than Christ, but then He reminds me that its not. What hope that gives to me when all seems dark.
A friend of mine reminded me about a year ago that it is when life seems the darkest that the stars shine the brightest… and don’t forget to look up. As I was reading through my journal last night, I came across that reminder again. So, though my heart feels overwhelmingly dark right now and each step is clouded by confusion, here are a few of the “stars…”
I believe that I shall look upon the goodness of the LORD in the land of the living! Wait for the LORD; be strong, and let your heart take courage; wait for the LORD! Psalm 27:13-14
God is not man, that he should lie, or a son of man, that he should change his mind. Has he said, and will he not do it? Or has he spoken, and will he not fulfill it? Numbers 23:19
But we have this treasure in jars of clay, to show that the surpassing power belongs to God and not to us. We are afflicted in every way, but not crushed; perplexed, but not driven to despair; persecuted, but not forsaken; struck down, but not destroyed; always carrying in the body the death of Jesus, so that the life of Jesus may also be manifested in our bodies. 2 Corinthians 4:7-10
Be merciful to me, O God, be merciful to me, for in you my soul takes refuge; in the shadow of your wings I will take refuge, till the storms of destruction pass by. I cry out to God Most High, to God who fulfills his purpose for me. He will send from heaven and save me…Psalm 57:1-3
Bless the LORD, O my soul, and forget not all his benefits, who forgives all your iniquity, who heals all your diseases, who redeems your life from the pit, who crowns you with steadfast love and mercy, who satisfies you with good so that your youth is renewed like the eagle’s. The LORD works righteousness and justice for all who are oppressed. He made known his ways to Moses, his acts to the people of Israel. The LORD is merciful and gracious, slow to anger and abounding in steadfast love. Psalm 103:2-8